Light fills my body to overflowing.

a wellness journey part 3

I am plugged into wellness.

Light fills my body to overflowing.

I turn the dial, I am perfectly plugged into source.

March 8th, 2025

Day 7

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I am plugged into wellness.

I am plugged into wellness.

Light overflows and fills my body.

I turn the dial, I am aligned perfectly with source.

March 9th, 2025

Day 8

No matter what anyone else thinks, I’m doing what’s best for me in this life. I am currently not sure about Jesus, but most definitely sure about the current day church. It just gives me the heebie jeebies. Cliquey and stressed out. Numb. Or that’s how it feels to me as I’ve come out of it the last six years. Maybe it’s just one of those “good for you, not for me” scenarios. (a quote and mindset from the book ‘Yes Please!’ thank you Amy Poehler)

It may be good for some people, healing them in ways. I think it helped and healed me in some ways too, it killed me in others. The system of it all. The good ol boys and house wives club of it all. The prescription. The boxed in thinking. The my-way-is-the-only-way mindset. It lured me in, and healed me in ways back in my mid twenties and early thirties. I met my husband there, which I will never regret and wouldn’t take back in a million trillion years. Things and seasons happen when they are meant, and how.

I’m learning slowly, but what seems like surely.

Asking, to myself, heart beating, pounding really, what is the point of it all?

God, Great Spirit, Source, Universe, Mother Earth, what is the way. To love. To peace. To happiness while we’re here? Show, illuminate.

Give me eyes to see and a peaceful still heart to hear. Buddha, Ghandi, Lennon, Petty, what do we need to know. Ancestors, lead us. Speak clearly, give me faith to walk forward in what my spirit feels peace about. Leaving feelings of unworthiness and fear for grounding and balance, ready to move forward. Arms wide open, armor on.

Present. Aware. Releasing and expressing. Being me, while I’m here to be. Finding out who that is now, in real time. The cats mill about and Seth is still sleeping, a sauna fire started to be ready and warmed up soon, peaceful for my afternoon vocal lesson.

And the moment takes me over after one puff of marijuana, I must write. Not much maybe, but even a little tiny bit is healing to my soul. How I express and let it go, process it all. life, my soul.

What is right now?

I am sitting on a chair, in my den, on a yoga block to get a little more height and aide in correcting my posture while at my dest. Ergonomics.

The snow is slowly starting to fade, winter is on it’s way out and that’s grievous to me, but also beautiful. I guess I come alive in the season of hibernation and death. In ways I do in the other seasons too, but it’s taking me some time to feel ready for this transition to spring and a wild winding summer. Our biggest yet, the most significant and the most in tune with each other we’ve ver been. We just celebrated out 10 year anniversary. The mirror of marriage, shown brightly for both of us these last ten years, a lone storm sometimes, but each showing up for one another in the end, always. A decade. The trees are beginning to bloom out the window. The smoke is clear on the sauna chimney which I can see with an easy glance out my den window as I write. Seth is awake and trying to get my attention, I’m gonna go kiss him.

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I am plugged into wellness.

Light overflows my body and surrounds me.

I turn the dial, I am signed perfectly to source.

March 10th, 2025

Day 9

Consistency. It’s healing. I need more of it in my life. It is coming. It is here. I had an interview with the office manager at Radiant Natural Health Clinic today, got the job! It’s what I believe in, natural healing. Our bodies doing what they can, partnered with choosing to give it correct fuel to aide in natural healing abilities. Things that grow in the ground, herbs, plants, flowers and such. Doing body work to assist in healing; yoga, massage, stretching, acupuncture, craniosacral work, chiropractic care. Eating the correct fuel, watching for and avoiding chemicals and genetically modified foods where possible, limiting refined sugar and unclean foods. Increasing protein. Taking care of my mind, meditation, time alone. Writing, singing. Being aware. Being authentic. Listening to my body and soul, they speak. I am learning.

I am SO excited to start with Dr. Kerry Niebrzydowski at her clinic. I am hoping I will find my place to be humble and authentically do the healing work I’ve always been called to. In addition to writing, music and creating that I love.

I gave them my availability for the rest of the year in email today.

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If you missed part 1&2 of the series and want to go back, you can find them on the main page of The Alternative. Thanks for sharing a healing journey with me!

Year: 2025

Days In: 105

Days Remaining: 260

Time is sure ticking,

Des

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