Week 27 of 2025. And I’ve hit a wall.
I had high hopes for this space and feel quite like a failure in following through, which leads to shame and guilt and more unworthiness which I already struggle with in my mental journey often.
Today has been a hard day in general for a lot of reasons and the nagging thoughts of, must write and publish something, hasn’t helped much.
So I’ve decided that as much as I hate to, I will quit. I will quit the self imposed deadlines I’ve placed on myself here. I already have enough in our actual business that I cannot keep this one up too. I wish I could, I really love to write, but to put something out meaningful and thought provoking weekly is just not in the cards these days. Maybe seasons change, maybe they don’t.
I’m not closing it down completely, but I am removing the weekly deadline from my scope. The pressure of life builds up and I burst, which is what I really want to focus on deeper, my mental health. Not just writing about it, but being about it. Which is far more important than writing about it to me at this midlife point in the journey. I send gratitude, deeply, to those who’ve supported and believed in me, I’m sorry I couldn’t keep it up. If you’d like to remove your support, I understand completely.
When I feel I’ve been truly inspired and have something worthwhile and well written to share, I will, but until then I will be taking as good of care of myself as I can. Affirming the things I hope to see blossom into reality in my life and mind.
My love,
Des
There is no failure here there is only success at realizing that the goals you set were not meant for ‘YOU’ they were meant for someone else who you thought was you. Now you’ve just met that person . Welcome !
Being able to recognize when something isn’t bringing you joy and is becoming more of a burden shows you are on a true path to healing. Keep listening to your inner voice. Not the one that lies and makes you feel less than. That one you can only hear when you get quiet. You’re surrounded by love my sweet sister. Always and in all ways. 💚